I LIKE

...the smell of a summer night

...the smell of sandalwood tree

...the smell of eucalyptus tree

...hanging out with my good old frens

...the feeling when i have a great day during training

...knowing that someone cares and loves me

...playing with babies

...the tears of joy

...having heart to heart talks

...being driven ard 

...cuddly hugs

...when Spring is arriving

...the beautiful flowers during Spring

...laying down on the grass field just looking up into the clear blue sky

...having deep thoughts on my aims in life

...dancing

...being kissed on the forehead

...having good laughs

...being spoilt by someone =)

..........and many many more

After 1 month

It has been a month of me working at Ministry of Defence. I haf to admit that it's a tough job but i'm loving this job. It has always been wat i wanna do and now, i get to do wat i love. I'm complaining sometimes though..hehehe..always going for meetings and coming back with new projects. I know i gotta build my reputation and no doubt, i'm doing that really fast. Now they know that there is a Sports Scientist available and so naturally the thoughts of "Hey why not lets make good use of the new sports scientist?!?!?!" hahahaha.. And bear in mind, the Ministry of Defence has many different areas. And working in Ministry of Defence = MULTITASKING!!! YEAY BABY!!hahahahaha...gotta learn how to multitask really well. I go home everyday with an overloaded brain..trying to brainstorm for ideas and more ideas for the many many projects that are given to me. 

 Ppl ask me wat do i as a sports scientist. Basically at the meantime, I'm looking at their BFT(Basic Fitness Test) and their remedial programs..Revise through it and recommend something better. Basically, my job is to enhance the performance of the soldiers. Other things like testing their uniforms and boots to see if its highly recommended, coming out with programs to help them train better while reducing injuries, helping the obese lose weight and conducting courses for the instructors. Well, something like dat. hehehe.. lots of work but i'm loving my job. The only two things i'm not enjoying are the long boring drive to Tutong everyday and also the hot and humid office. The central air-conditioner is still out of order and it gets really really hot during late mornings and after dat. Its making me so cranky at work and being not able to function at all..hahaha.. so i'll always try to schedule my meetings in the afternoon so i can get out of office. 

Today i went to the library in Min Def and i love their library. Really nice looking and they haf many books. And if they don't haf the books that i want, i can just place an order. How awesome is dat?!!!!! I love it. Dat means i don't haf to spend my own money to buy books. I just need to give them the title and author and they'll get it for me. And the librarian is so very helpful =) On a different note, nowadays i get a little scared when i'm being introduced to any high ranking military officer coz i'll be introduced as a sports scientist. So far, most officer that i've been introduced to, they haf all said to me, "Ah!!! great!!! I'll contact you and we'll sit down, chat and see how u can help me with this and that and everything." but my immediate boss is really nice...He'll tell me, "Just dont agree to anything they ask u to do". hahahaha.. but i cant really reject when they want something.. That means MORE PROJECTS for me!! hahahaha. isnt dat awesome?!?! *eyes-rolling* And hence, i get mentally exhausted everyday. 

Oh well, life goes on. They expects me to work what they're paying me. So, cant complain. hehehe

20/09/2009

How time flies!!! And soooo much can happen in one year. People change, friends drift apart, old chapter closes while new one opens but some things definitely do not change. I've been through wat we would call a "rollercoaster" in the past one year. In fact, many many "rollercoasters" in one year. I've learnt so much in life that it would take long time to blog about it..hehehe.. life lessons that are priceless. Some painful, some joyous and sometimes i had learn to swallow my own pride, ego and anger for the better of everything. I reckon i've grown in some ways and hence, who i am today. Some, i wish i don't haf to go through again while some, i still reminiscence again once in a while. 

Sometimes we make certain decisions that we know we shouldn't haf made. And i definitely did make certain wrong decisions along the way and it had make me grow so weary and restless. And I do pray to God that He will be my shield and my strong tower. Alot of times i feel so tired that i just wanna give up but i did promise to hang on and finish the race so therefore, i'll do my best. The path of life definitely has loads of bumps, hills and potholes but we just gotta haf faith and trust in Him. 

For you who are feeling really tired and weary as I am, hang on there. We'll get through if we believe. How much further, dat i dunno. 

Selamat Hari Raya

My fonts are green coz Raya is coming..hahaha. Ramadhan is going to be over real soon and Raya is coming. Every year, fasting month has been quite a month for me. Really tiring coz we train during the afternoons and nites. and going back to work in the morning again. This year i tried fasting for the whole month together with my muslim friends but i gotta drink. I just don't eat. hehehe. So far,its not too bad but some days I fail in fasting. hehehe. 

Its gonna be a long weekend for me. I have 4.5 days of holiday. Some of my frens will be off to S'pore and most of them will be celebrating Raya so i'll prolly stay home and rot..hehehe. Will only go visiting when i haf to =) Visitings will mean eat and eat and eat. Not good for me. I'm hoping raya will fall on a Monday and not Sunday. Well, not like it i'm celebrating it but I would prefer it to be on a Monday..hehehe. 

 

Anyways, would like to wish all my muslim friends Selamat Hari Raya!!!!

Sleepyhead

In the office all by myself, with the sound of my music playing while soldiers marching in the background, i'm feeling rather sleepy right now. Not only should i say but also lonely =S hehehe its just so weird to be in the office all by myself. I'm so used to having ppl ard me in the office but now i'm alone in my own office. It's empty, not very quiet and the walls are rather depressing. I've told myself to get some posters to sports and other stuff but havent got to that yet. Even planned to get a radio in my office to entertain me but havent got to that too. 

So, another new beginning in my career. How is it u may ask. Its alrite. I feel like i havent left MOE coz i'm still doing the Scheme of Work for the SPN21 coz i've decided to remain in the committee. I wanna see the whole new IGCSE PE "taking off" in Brunei and i wanna be a part of that great experience. Besides that, i haf my own task to do here. It has only been a week now and i've already given many tasks to finish within these 2weeks. The PTIs are having a sports science course next month so i'm preparing for the lectures while trying to finish up the SOW. BUT the silence, the coldness and the emptiness of this office is making me soooo sleepy. No one to talk to and i'm only hearing the soldiers marching. And... my office is rite at the end of the building while everyone else's is at the other end. I can even hear my own echo when i talk..hahaha. Its not totally empty but it feels rather empty. Apakan??!?!? hahaha.. if u get me. 

Working in the military is definitely very different. I've gotta get used to the way militaries work. Everything is by the book of law with many many procedures to follow. Must be like this and like dat. But the good thing is that when u need something to be done, ur clerks will get it done on time and they take instructions really well coz they're trained to do dat. The only downside is that i haf to travel 30mins to get to work and another 30mins back. Thats crazy! its too far for me. And who m i gonna haf lunch wif now? No one is gonna come all the way here to haf lunch wif me. Plus the militaries cant go out of the camp site for lunch coz they're in their uniforms. Unless someone wants to come here for lunch wif me..hehehe.. then i'll know who my true frens are =) *hint* hahaha

Alrite, i gotta go back to doing my work. I was just taking a break from work to blog how sleepy i am and how much work i've got to do =/ 

Exercise-induced allergy

There are certain things i'm allergic to. I'm particularly allergic to cigaret smoke, which gives me a headache and blocked nose, dust and fur, which gives me blocked nose and itchy throat, ibu profen which will give me hives on my body and PRAWNS!!!!!! I hate allergies. I never knew i was allergic to prawns until 2 years ago when i had 2 big prawns before training. Outcome??? One very swollen and itchy face with hives *yikes* So i tot i'm allergic to one particular big prawn. But no!!! dats not it. Last nite, i went over to my fren's house for a full month party and he was talking to me while i was taking some food. Without realizing what i was taking, i took 2 small little prawns coz i was interrupted by him. I did not even realise i was eating the prawns. Myb i was ignorant coz i tot small prawns were ok but not the big ones. So...into my stomach it went. After that dinner, i went for my regular training session and ran for abt 15mins. The whole 15mins, the right side of my face was itchy. My fren who ran wif me tot it was pimples on my face initially. After 15mins, i asked him if my face was swollen and he said, "there are spots on ur face". That was when it struck me..."OH NO!!!!! MUST BE ALLERGIES FROM THE PRAWNS". Man, i swear i havent panicked in a long time until last nite. By the time i took at look on my face, my face were partly covered in hives. I panicked, looking for medication and i knew i was out of d medication. Few minutes later when i look in the mirror, my face was covered in hives and it was swollen and itchy. I almost cried..hahaha..seriously. I look HORRIBLE and it was super itchy. I ransacked my car to find an alternative medicine and thank God, i found something *phew* Medication says 1 tablet a day but i took 2. hahaha..I did not care if it would make me feel drowsy. As long as it helps, its fine wif me. Then we went looking for coconut water which also helps with allergies. Abt 15mins later, it got better. Thank God. but my face was a little swollen and left with spots. 

So i found out that my prawn allergy is exercise-induced, meaning if i eat prawns and then exercise, the allergic reaction will appear during exercise or after i exercise. Mine appeared immediately after i stopped running. I swear i'm not taking any prawns anymore, exercise or not. hahahaha.. lesson learnt =S Not taking any chances unless i haf medication beside me..hehehe 

Counting down

5 more days!!! yeap, it will be another 5 more days till i start my new job. And its another 2 more teaching days for me left here in SMLK. Havent had any classes during this fasting month coz the Ugama teachers are taking all our PE lessons, which is not too bad coz it means i haf time to finish up all the Scheme of Work for SPN21 *phew* i've been cracking my head for this SPN21 and i'm still not done yet =/ On the other side, i'm a bit disappointed coz i dun get another chance to teach my students. One of my classes touched my heart yesterday. They knew i was gonna leave so they made me a huge heart shaped card with small little notes from all the students. They're one of my fav classes. The gals in dat class is so adorable. They'll always ask me to organize a slumber party at my house before i leave or the loser has to dance =) 

Be right back!!

Yea, just got back from taking pic with the students in that class. I'll definitely miss them when i'm gone but life goes on. We need to be always moving forward =)

Scars

I just realised I'm scarred for life..Something scarred me for life..but i'm not gonna mention wat it is..Oh dear!! Everytime when i fink abt it or when i hear someone talk abt that particular thing, it brings back memories which had scarred me for life. And it ruins my mood after dat =/  Why oh why??? On times like dat, i wish i'm a very forgetful person. Well, apparently i fink abt it every single day..not only when someone talks abt it. Its haunting me!!!! I wish i could turn back time & change so many things =/